Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Prayer please?!

As of right now I am 16 weeks pregnant...
'Supposedly' I am supposed to be in the 'honeymoon' stage of the pregnancy.
My hormones have been C-R-A-Z-Y.
So much so I asked them to specifically test my thyroid.
Sure enough it came back abnormal.
They are going to run more tests and such, but it's amazing how if your thyroid is just a little bit off your whole body is whack!
I have days where I am so depressed (I am not a depressed person!) I can't get off the couch (on top of horrid morning sickness)
and then days where I go, go, go and get tons of stuff done.
I ask for your prayers because I need all the back up I can get.
I struggle with being kind to the kids and it breaks my heart and their' s. 
I struggle with waking up and wanting to pray and seek God to get me through the day.
On good days it is easy, but sometimes on those bad days my flesh gets the best of me.
Pray that the Lord brings me a peace and a patience.
I am not even half way done and I am ready for this baby to be OUT.
I want to slow down and be able to enjoy this pregnancy and the last couple of months with just two kids.

Oh yes! I forgot to tell you all I finally found a place to have the baby!
I have decided Southern California is the worst place to have a baby
for a person that wants a natural, non-invasive birth.
As you know, I wanted a home birth but as I searched around town, I wasn't able to connect with a midwife I was comfortable with.
And to top it off the midwives out here charge a ridiculous amount of money just because they can and there are rich people who will pay for it.
I could have gone that route but the Lord provided me wonderful insurance through my dad (Thank Mr. Obama!) so I wanted to use that. 
It took me a week to call every hospital around here and get opinions and reviews.
I was so stressed I was ready to have the baby in WA or have Aaron deliver the baby himself. 
He even offered, that sweet man of mine, when I was in the middle of a crying fest.
After much stress, I found a hospital that fit my needs!
For those interested,
the majority of the hospitals out here have HIGH c-section,episitomy,vacuum,induction rates.
They take the baby to the nursery immediately after birth so you can 'recover'.
They limit how many people can be in the room with you and some even say no pictures in the delivery room!
The one I found is very supportive of natural, have GREAT nurses aaaaaaaannd, they have midwives!!!
So I will deliver with a midwife after all :)
The Lord is good.
This hospital is similar to the one I delivered at in WA so I am content, happy and at peace.

Now I just need some peace from these hormones!!!!


angelakay said...

praying for you girl! I can't even close to empathize with what that must be like, but i can KINDA get a glimpse, just being a girl and all. some days are just rough! and especially when things like thyroids aren't functioning properly! hopefully the docs can get that under control and that will just make you feel a MILLION times better! And try to remember Isaiah 41:10--"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand" and 1 Peter 5:7 "cast all your burdens on Him because He cares for you". God wants to take this burden from you and strengthen you through Him, and through all of the struggles and ups and downs of pregnancy! I am confident after all of this, you will probably feel like you can handle JUST about anything!! :]

and wow. never having a baby before... i did NOT know all those crazy restrictions some hospitals have on delivery. what in the world?!?! <-- that's all I gotta say! that's crazy, but sadly nothing this day in age even surprises me anymore!! but God is good and always provides, at the right time and in the right ways!

I'll be keeping you all in my prayers for sure!! You got this!! :]

Jill said...

Oh I will pray for you.

So glad you know your body well that you knew something wasn't right.

I have a friend who only has thyroid issues during her pregnancies and then it goes back to normal. But they are very hard on her as well.

M & K were happy to see you when they were out in CA. :)

The Roli Poli's said...

Thank you ladies!!! It really warms my heart to read your comments!

Angie- those verses were just what I needed!!!!! Thank you for encouraging me to give it over to the Lord.

Jill- Thanks for the prayers! It was great to see them! Sometimes a familiar face is just what I need to brighten my day :)

beccarankin said...

I will be praying. Those mood swings are hard to deal with, and with little kids it is.... well... it's just frustrating. I often find myself in tears because I've let my pain, or tiredness, or whatever make me unkind to them. So.... know that I'm praying with you and for you, knowing what it is like.
Keep us updated on your health. And I'm so glad you found a midwife who will cater to what you want. I've often wondered what I would do if we have another one. :-)

~ Tandis ~ said...

I will say a prayer now.